Possession


Reading Pedersen, Dark Hearts, notes from the chapter on the Oedipal Wound

Referencing Freud’s view that incest is a child’s “wish to possess sexually one parent or the other,” Pedersen states that this view of possession is too narrow.  When applied to men and their mothers,  it delayed understanding of their possessive urge.  Pedersen believes that incest should be thought of as a “symbolic regressive longing for what the mother represents.”

My mother did so many thing right. I mourn for the relationship that I perceive us once having. Not one of my peers was treated as well when sick. Whether it was a common cold or a pernicious flue, she waited upon me while I stayed in bed.

Lying there, I could set my life around the lower bookshelf adjacent to my pillow. My radio, my books, and my writings were at the ready. When they were not enough, I could recall the  toy soldiers  under my bed.

Having the soldiers so close to my border was one more privilege of illness. Normally, by her command they bunked in the closet across the room. Sick days were an exception.  A boy not feeling well could never be expected to walk across the room.

4 thoughts on “Possession

  1. jhvn October 13, 2014 / 10:23 am

    I’m most interested in your fascination with toy soldiers.

    • fictionfitz October 13, 2014 / 10:28 am

      I always had them, plus cowboys and Indians. Changed sides constantly.

  2. Carole Webber October 13, 2014 / 11:35 am

    This piece reminded me of Robert Louis Stevenson’s poem ” The Land of Counterpane” when I was sick and lay a bed……
    Welcome back to the geezer, where have you been, John ?

    • fictionfitz October 13, 2014 / 2:42 pm

      If you find it, sent it. Like to read.

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